The end of senior year

Senior year officially came to an end today! It's crazy to think that for the past 18 years of my life I've had everything so easy, and now after Sunday I enter the real world.
I hadn't really thought about it until today

I completely lost it when my dad started crying about me graduating, he NEVER cries.
Last night Cole started crying and telling me how he didn't want me to leave! I still have 100 days until I move in to KU and it's only 20 minutes away. It's finally dawned on me that I'm going to miss my family like crazy, i'm not just "getting away". I'm actually starting a new chapter in my life and my family won't be in it every day like they used to be!

Saturday- the big day of my party! Boy, I thought I could handle anything, turns out I can't. I don't think I could've done this day without my mom, she did so incredibly much to help out for my party. I was a complete grad party-zilla, can't imagine how I'll be on my wedding day. :/ The party was such a great turn out. All of the people I love and am very close to came! We had a dessert only party, and let's just say it was a hit! Graduation parties are probably one of the most fun parties I've been too, I'm still continuing to write thank-you letters to everyone that came and dropped off their generous gifts to me :)



Sunday-This was the day that brought me down emotionally. I thought I was ready until I found out my dad had been crying all morning, and read the page long note he wrote me- if you're wondering yes, I did cry, in fact I cried like a baby. I made my brother read it and then he started crying and just buried his face into my shoulder- I lost it again. I never realized that my dad and brother were this sentimental, it meant so much to me. Graduation was awesome, except for Mr. Beam announced us as the Class of 2010- that was so last year ;) other than that it was absolutely amazing!!!!!!

I couldn't ask for better family and friends. Thank you to everyone that was able to share this special weekend with me, and thank you for the gifts. I will keep everyone posted as I make my way to college. without my friends and family I don't know where I would be.

Class of 2011- I will never forget the memories I've had and the friends I've made. I hope that everyone continues to stay in touch. I wish everyone the best of luck as you make your journey through life!

I will update more Sunday after graduation and my party :)

Heaven has a new angel

On Friday as most people know, I have games. Friday to me is known as game day, and mentally I am always prepared to play on Friday. During my first game I hit one out . After my second game I went to talk to my Dad, and he told me something had happened. Instantly I knew something was wrong, someone we were extremely close to had died. I broke down. I think me hitting a home run was her looking out for me, I believe in angels and Heaven, I think this was her way of saying she was watching the people she loved. I think God has messengers, and these are his Angels, I also believe that they do send messages to us on Earth to let us know they are thinking of us and watching out for us.

I personally don't think life every prepares for the loss of a loved one. No matter how much warning they give you ahead of time, it never prepares you for the loss, and the realization that you will never get to speak to them or hear their voices. It hurt me very much to see her go. When my mom was in the hospital she was the first person to take care of me, and keep my mind off of seeing my mom in pain. Her daughter was my best friend at the time and she will always be a life long best friend that I can count on. Without their support I never would've made it through this tough time. She was a wonderful woman, and you knew you could always count on her.

She would give you the shirt off of her back if you needed it. The world doesn't have many people that are willing to be like that. Even though I know she was suffering and in pain, we will greatly miss her, she is in a better place though because living in pain is not living life to the fullest. I will be here for her family every step of the way. She will be greatly missed, but she will also be remembered as one of the best people I have ever met. I am glad that I can say that I knew her, and how much of a wonderful person she is. R.I.P. and we all love you.